A long post ahead. You, my friends, have been warned. Lots of ramblings and random things you may not want to read. I won't be offended. Once again, lots of teen angst. Because I may be eighteen years old, but I am only five at heart. Read on if you find my inner thoughts amusing. If you find them stupid, you can also read ahead if you please - but be aware! No fucks will be given.
I am not sure I know what I'm doing with my life anymore. I am doubting myself a lot lately and it's not fun. I was always an indecisive girl but determined, one way or another. Now, I'm just a little lost. From my major, to my personality, to my hair colour, to my blog. I am happy, I am sad. I pass one of my General Ed subjects, and I am failing the other. Nothing entertains me and I am drowning in boredom. That sounds really tragic, but I promise that's just me trying to be poetic here.
What mostly concerns you, though, is the blog. Truth be told, I'm a little bored. I have always loved blogging - hell, I've been doing it since I'm 12 - but something feels off now. I don't know if I want to keep the whole fashion blog façade. I have said I wanted to make it more personal but I don't know if I feel comfortable sharing my life with everyone, since I was never that kind of girl. I am bored of the theme/layout, I am bored of the url, I am bored of the content. I feel like it's pointless but I love it a lot so I don't want to quit. At all. I just don't know what to do anymore because I am not entirely sure what I'm good at, either. There is this person I would like to be (and that I'm currently not) so there is this process I have to go through. Quit doing some things, start doing some others. It's probably not going to be easy, for I'm not a person to like changes all that much, but I feel like I will be happier and more comfortable in my own skin. I think I might be embarking on one of those clichéd "finding yourself" trips and I beg you to, please, bare with me along the way. Because I like all of you. And I hope you like me too.